Oh no. i think i'm gonna cough the whole night...

anyways, look at the time. i'm neither sleeping nor studying. someone slap me please.

so i decided to do something productive! by going to universities website and looking at the courses that i wish to enter... all in the name of a scary & complex issue of "my future".

so i had a look at NUS website first. there is a course that i would love to enter. which is mathematics or applied mathematics. look at this.

Mathematics
Both the Mathematics and Applied Mathematics Programmes aim to equip undergraduates with valuable analytical, quantitative and problem solving skills for various careers in areas such as mathematical science research, education, as well as financial and operations management.
The Mathematics Programme offers modules in the major areas of contemporary mathematics, including Algebra, Analysis, Geometry, Topology, Logic, Number Theory and Combinatorics, while the Applied Mathematics Programme concentrates on algorithms, problem-solving techniques and applications to other areas of human concern. Key modules of Applied Mathematics include those pertaining to Modelling, Numerical Computation, Financial Mathematics, Optimization and Operations Research, and Coding and Cryptography.

i thnk the scope of the course is not bad eh. very interesting to me.. and the admission criteria is that i must have good H2 pass or equivalent in Mathematics. hmmm. but that doesnt mean they wont look at my other H2 subjects rite? sigh... why is it so competitive.......

next, for NTU, i had a look at the combined degree: Economics & Mathematics.

This is a new combined degree jointly offered by the Division of Mathematical Sciences in the School of Physical and Mathematical Sciences and the Division of Economics in the School of Humanities and Social Sciences.
It is a four-year direct honours programme leading to the degree of Bachelor of Science (Hons) in Mathematics and Economics.

This degree is aimed at students with strong quantitative aptitude and keen interest in economics.

Students will learn how mathematics is applied to model economic decisions, make economic forecasts; in general how mathematics is a powerful tool for modeling economic and financial market activities.

The training that graduates of this degree acquire - a combination of critical economic analysis and strong mathematical and computational skills - a highly valued by employers in the financial services industry, business as well as the public sector. The degree is also ideal for those who plan to pursue a Master's degree in financial engineering, professional or graduate programmes in finance, economics, actuarial science or other related fields.

Admission Requirements
In addition to the general admission requirements of NTU, students need at least a GCE A-level pass in Mathematics or equivalent. A background in economics is not required.

look at that.. i will work hard for my future! no doubt about that (:

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updated:

hmmm. come to think of it, i don't know if i'm able to go to university even. seeing the university fees alr made me feel sad. it's gonna cost a lot and will my family be able to support me? i don't know. and as you all may know, my management of business sucks. however hard i tried to study for it, there's no use. i dont want it to come to a point where my mob dissappoint me and becos of that i'm not eligible. but. i really wanna go uni to further my studies and get a degree and work after that. but what if, i'm saying what if (touch wood*) i didnt make it in my A levels, what will happen to me? i only have my O levels cert to back me up. and then what? whats my path after that? hmmmm. it really is scary thinking about what my future may bring to me.. but let's hope, whatever choice i made, it's for my own good and i will find happiness in it. furthermore, i realise i cant do anything except for maths -.-, tell me, where's my future in that?