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one final post before i offically move to the other blog :)

Life is beautiful
Life is beautiful when we always think about the positive side of life. Once you really know how to control your emotions well, you will eventually feel that all this while, it is just mind over matter, and you are able to conquer that negative side of your mind. You can then be a cheerful person. We must learn to appreciate things around us and not take things for granted.

Sometimes, we are unable to hide our feelings from the people around us, but it is alright to show it out. Crying may not be the best solution but at least it helps to de-stress for a while. Your life does not simply means just a happy life or a sad life. You must be able to balance well these two emotions and then, you can be a better person. Once you know how to appreciate your life, then your life is beautiful with your friends, family and relatives. I admit i do get angry or sad easily over the simplest things, but i learn how to absorb it all in and turn in into something positive. Now, my life is somewhat beautiful in a way.

A world without borders
A world without borders simply means that doctors have no limitations when they help others. They would go all out to help them. Like for example in the article about "what is doctors without borders/Medicine Sans Frontieres?", it is said that "MSF provide health care, rehabilitates..... when needed, MSF also constructs wells and dispenses clean drinking water, and provides shelter materials like blankets and plastic sheeting". This means that even though they are only doctors, they do not restrict themselves to just treating the patient who are badly injured or those who need help. They will also help out in making the area a better place for the people to live in. I feel that everyone should live in a world without borders, as this does not limit us to do the things that we aspire to achieve, and bring out the talent in most of us. With that, the world will be a better place for everyone to live in.

OMG. the second last sentence like singing one of the national day song. haha.
ok i'm done. back to my chemistry. today is like seriously chemistry day :(

i am no longer using this blog (:

find out if you are smart enough x)

HAHAHA. Qiaoying is my HOT friend in friendster! wahahahaha.

ok firstly, thx to qy for accompanying me to take pay! wahhahaha, but like $4 missing eh. why eh? but at least the basic one still there it's alright. so went to bank it straight after that.

the journey home was a bad one cos there were so many people in the MRT. really like kiasu and kiasee lah. omg. cannot stand it.

in class, didnt do much. for chem, went through paper and consulation. and for PW, slack lah! i can still go online and chat with jiunhaur x))

so tmr's the class bbq. i hope it turns out alright. cos i'll be SUPER tired. tsk tsk.

they say that people are usually judged by their first appearance. is that true?

if it is, then many people are deceived by what they first see of that person. what if the message potrayed is different from what it's being received by others? thats when lie comes in. people are often being lied to. or they themselves lie to others. all for the sake of "the future". every decision made will affect the future, so people choose to lie to choose the easy way out. but lies can be so demanding, it will turn into something drastic, which is worse.

tsk tsk. a bunch of crap. i don't even know what i'm writing.

anyways, tmr's the start of yet another intensive week. but i believe i will go to the end. i must do it no matter what (:

i am feeling super angry and super pissed right now that i dun think what anyone say will help change the situation.

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and i still got the damn flu. when will i ever recover.

anyways, this is the second time that i feel like this. and it is so not nice. i feel like crying.

and so what if this post is damn emo. it is my blog. i dun care. it is exactly what i am feeling right now.

oh my gosh. it's been so long since i last blogged! i've got much to say. hahahah

firstly, it's the 29th day of the fasting month! that means, one more day to go! and then it's hari raya. hahahahaha. so exciting. and tmr's only half day for us! :D

so, i've been working for these 3 days. and the outcome: swollen ankle. damn tired man! been standing for most of the time! but at least it's over, so that means here comes $$ :D

made frens while working. but it's still as boring as ever. here's a look at the toilet that i worked in.

wahahahaha. damn nice rite! damn cool also. cos got aircon xD
well, i shall not say much about work cos there's nth much to say. just that the sound was like super high pitch and loud! till my ear drums wanna burst man.. tsk tsk. but overall, it was ok. can say i had fun. hahaha.

ouh ouh, for the first ever time, i smelled wine/beer. OMG man. the smell is so not nice-smelling -.-" but F1 is damn cool lah. i wanna drive! xD

colleagues! haha. all slackers sia! xD

ok enough about work. another event that i missed to blog about is my shopping for hari raya stuff with qiaoying! haahaha. was during the second marking day.

ohmygosh i tell u. i bought so many stuffs. hahahahaha. xD

new converse bag. nice not! lol

hari raya stuffs :D

for my ankle! hahaha

went to watch movie also. disaster movie! the movie damn gross some parts. hhahha. but overall it was ok. lol

den we went to eat at SEOUL garden. hahahaha damn nice lah de food. but i didnt eat much lah. dunno why. stomachache. hahahaha. qy ate alot! den she also stomachache. hahahaha. i should train myself to eat buffet xD LOL. more more! the chickens are damn nice i feel. hahahhaha. i wan to eat again xD this time, can eat student price one ok! :D

after a long day, went back home. 1 hour journey home lah. almost slept in the mrt. hahahh. but fun day :D

well, intensive h1 timetable has started from today. but was ok lah i thnk. just 3 more weeks to go. and then it's h1. omg omg. damn scary.

first of all, let me update about yesterday (:

Yesterday, after accounts paper, went home and slacked. lol. nothing to do mah. promos is over! :D

so met the girls at around 4pm at jurong east mrt station. they were being so makciks can. -.-" finding seats at the train. hahaha. so when we reached geylang, we went around to look at the clothes, shoes and FOOD. =P aishah and i were looking for bags and shoe. and after every shop that we went to, we said "see first uh". hahahah. something like that. i kinda forgot lah. lol. so, at around 6 plus, we went to sit at banquet, preparing to break fast. haha. before that, we were looking at the doughnut flyers that were given to us. HAHAHA. and we were like saying to one another which 6 pieces we wanted to buy. so at around 640 like that, we went to buy our food and water.


so kecoh seh. the queue was super long but lucky we got our food fast. haha. faezah had an embarrassing moment. lol. but the makcik/nenek beside us understood her. hahahahha. damn funny. and the little boy sitting beside aishah was like staring at her. and literally stare lah. for quite a long time. haha.

and the funny thing was, before breaking fast, aishah was like saying she wanted to buy a lot, i repeat, ALOT of finger foods like dengdeng and many more. in the end, after breaking fast, aishah and i were superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr full. haahah. we only bought dengdeng in the end. but we were super thirsty lah. lol. thirsty and hungry is 2 different thing. lol so after all that, aishah was the big spender. hahaha. but i bought a keychain. the one got ppl engrave ur name one. super nice :D so did aishah. after that, went back cos we were feeling super tired. hahaha. but overall, FUN OUTING with them. more outings pls! :D

ok, pictures time!

First and foremost, let me shout to the sky:

PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVER! I SMELL FREEDOM!

yeah, today was the last paper- accounts. the funny thing is, i was damn happy that i can balance my CFS. BUT! wrong sia -.- so in the end, i was happy for nothing. the paper is super hard. sigh. i just hope i can pass this paper!

meeting them later at around 4 plus. geylang here i come :)

meanwhile, maybe i should take a nap. lol

today was H2 Mathematics P2. my comments on it will be. ALOT of careless mistakes. ahhhh, damn sad lah. but it's ok. as long as i pass can already. and now, i'm putting my hopes on accounts, because i noe i can only rely on these 2 subjects to promote. hmmm, i really hope i can promote. if not, i have no idea what i'm gonna do.

so for tomorrow's accounts paper, i'm gonna study damn hard for it (i think), but the theory part is. urm. urm. we shall see =X

so last lap. wish me all the best ppl! tmr also going geylang xD

Hello everyone xD

today is a wonderful day and i shalln't tell u why!! lol. i'm dat selfish. haha.

anyways, 2 more papers to go, namely H2 Mathematics P2 and H2 PAA P2.
hmm, seriously, these 2 papers should be alright for me. BUT the teachers just had to say the PAA was gonna be tough. well, at least Mathematics will be easier. haha. i hope.

so, yesterday was MOB P2 rite. well, all i can say is good luck to me when i get back the results. cos for that 3 hours of intense butt cramp, i wrote crap all the way. but the funny thing was, when i clipped my hair, i remembered some of the points for the barriers to effective communication. hahaha. not forgetting, i think i look like a toot when i clipped my hair. hahahaha. but after the exams, my friends were telling me that i was stoning for like half an hour. hahah. was it that obvious? but true lah. i was stoning. cos got nothing to write mah. hmmmm.

after that,qy & i went to the library to do maths. we started on complex numbers and then we got stuck! hahhahaha. then we didnt had the mood to continue so we talked about our date. haha. like what movies to watch, where to eat. for the movies part, i said disaster movie! hahahahah. but it's not confirmed yet. so we shall decide again. as for the dinner, we decided to eat at Seoul Garden! it will be my second! hahahahha. and qy shall cook for me this time around =X (cos i dunno how =P ) and we shall buy our bags after that xD so exciting. can't wait man. hahahaha.

when we got stuck doing complex numbers. lol

so we left the school at around 5 and then went to westmall's shop & save. bought the buns again and then went to buy tidbits. qy was like a super auntie cos she bought milk and cereal and cup noodles and buns. hahahahaha. auntie! after that, went back home and prepared for break fast.

well, i was SUPER full ytd with dinner and the buns. so i didnt eat my crackers and i believe i will when i do maths after breaking fast! hahaha. i got the potato chips and prawn crackers! jealous not? haha.

not forgetting, i have a hot date with special people on thursday too. geylang sipaku geylang............ geylang si rama-rama.. Pulang, marilah pulang, marilah pulang................ hahahah, ok, let's not get ourselves too excited. HEE!

so 2 final laps it shall be x))

Oh no. i think i'm gonna cough the whole night...

anyways, look at the time. i'm neither sleeping nor studying. someone slap me please.

so i decided to do something productive! by going to universities website and looking at the courses that i wish to enter... all in the name of a scary & complex issue of "my future".

so i had a look at NUS website first. there is a course that i would love to enter. which is mathematics or applied mathematics. look at this.

Mathematics
Both the Mathematics and Applied Mathematics Programmes aim to equip undergraduates with valuable analytical, quantitative and problem solving skills for various careers in areas such as mathematical science research, education, as well as financial and operations management.
The Mathematics Programme offers modules in the major areas of contemporary mathematics, including Algebra, Analysis, Geometry, Topology, Logic, Number Theory and Combinatorics, while the Applied Mathematics Programme concentrates on algorithms, problem-solving techniques and applications to other areas of human concern. Key modules of Applied Mathematics include those pertaining to Modelling, Numerical Computation, Financial Mathematics, Optimization and Operations Research, and Coding and Cryptography.

i thnk the scope of the course is not bad eh. very interesting to me.. and the admission criteria is that i must have good H2 pass or equivalent in Mathematics. hmmm. but that doesnt mean they wont look at my other H2 subjects rite? sigh... why is it so competitive.......

next, for NTU, i had a look at the combined degree: Economics & Mathematics.

This is a new combined degree jointly offered by the Division of Mathematical Sciences in the School of Physical and Mathematical Sciences and the Division of Economics in the School of Humanities and Social Sciences.
It is a four-year direct honours programme leading to the degree of Bachelor of Science (Hons) in Mathematics and Economics.

This degree is aimed at students with strong quantitative aptitude and keen interest in economics.

Students will learn how mathematics is applied to model economic decisions, make economic forecasts; in general how mathematics is a powerful tool for modeling economic and financial market activities.

The training that graduates of this degree acquire - a combination of critical economic analysis and strong mathematical and computational skills - a highly valued by employers in the financial services industry, business as well as the public sector. The degree is also ideal for those who plan to pursue a Master's degree in financial engineering, professional or graduate programmes in finance, economics, actuarial science or other related fields.

Admission Requirements
In addition to the general admission requirements of NTU, students need at least a GCE A-level pass in Mathematics or equivalent. A background in economics is not required.

look at that.. i will work hard for my future! no doubt about that (:

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updated:

hmmm. come to think of it, i don't know if i'm able to go to university even. seeing the university fees alr made me feel sad. it's gonna cost a lot and will my family be able to support me? i don't know. and as you all may know, my management of business sucks. however hard i tried to study for it, there's no use. i dont want it to come to a point where my mob dissappoint me and becos of that i'm not eligible. but. i really wanna go uni to further my studies and get a degree and work after that. but what if, i'm saying what if (touch wood*) i didnt make it in my A levels, what will happen to me? i only have my O levels cert to back me up. and then what? whats my path after that? hmmmm. it really is scary thinking about what my future may bring to me.. but let's hope, whatever choice i made, it's for my own good and i will find happiness in it. furthermore, i realise i cant do anything except for maths -.-, tell me, where's my future in that?

i have something to blog about! hahahahahha

for so loooooooooooooooooooooooong i played this game. and today. 120908. i managed to complete it! yeah mansss. hahahahahahahhahaha. look!

:D:D:D your should play it too. lol

ok i got too excited. hahahahha. so let's blog about today.
i woke up around 9 plus i think. and started on accounts. sigh. there's like so much to do so little time... so tried my best. den went to school at around 2.
the exam was damn hard :( i cant doooooooooo. i'm only damn happy with my qn 5 lah. tsk tsk. anyways, after that, went to westmall to buy some mini buns and bubble tea. hahahaha. de mini buns so cute and so cheap. LOL. i thnk i'm gonna buy more next time. den went to buy tidbits and crackers to eat at home.

well. i thnk i did badly for my chem. sighhhhhhhh. sad lah. den later need eat apple during class. hahahhaha. damn funny. anywayd, got the form for the Sunburst Camp. truthfully speaking, i dunno what i'm doing on that one week though -.- so can someone going for the camp enlighten me? haha.

so anyways. i have 3 more papers to go! and i'm working for the F1! hahahahha. got free show to watch :D let's camwhore on that day ok aishah? ahhahahahahahahha.

anyways, HARI RAYA IS COMING. lol. i have yet to buy shoes and bag. and i'm so gonna buy that converse bag. $39.90. together with qy. hahahhahah. coolness rite. and i have to purchase black shoes? think all ask from mummy =X

and girls, dun forget our hot date on 18th september :D

ouh ouh. jiunhaur fly off the hk le! monkey miss lolli! hahahahahaha. hope u are safe back home :D

well, decided to blog since SOMEONE insist that i blog before 9pm but look at the time now. lol



anyways, today's maths paper is a killer man. like seriously. the hardest maths paper that i had ever done. i'm not even sure if i will score well in it. sigh... and for the past few papers. it was a killer too. damn stress sia. like i came to a conclusion that all the paper 1 are difficult.

so after maths paper, accompanied qy to yewtee to do something. lol. and since i had my mens. my stomach was hurting damn bad lah. in the end i couldnt ren and had to go toilet. and rushed to the coffeeshop lah -.- hahaha. thanks qy for waiting peacefully. LOL. so after that, went to lot 1 to walk walk.

i want to buy the rubik's cube keychain! around $5 only eh. hahahahaha. but i didnt buy lah. lol. hope some kind angel will buy for me xD LOL. just kidding lah. hahahahah. and i realised, that i wanna buy a lot of stuff man. shoes. bags. omg omg. globalisation. lol!

well since i'm not doing anything productive, i might as well blog.

hmmm let me see. what did i do today?
in the morning. woke up late. so in the end was late for the 9am consultation with ms zhang. so went at 12 plus one. kept asking her integration qns lah. hopefully i will be able to do the promos paper. sigh. paper 1 will be harder den paper 2 :(
so anyways, after that, ms zhang left and qy, swee wan & i stayed and study
i studied my chem and i was listening to my song from my mp3
and these 2 kukus were talking abt me i guess -.- i got so nice to talk abt meh?
so anyways, chem is like urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh to me. i have totally no comments about it. after that, qy went to meet her mum and i went home to continue "studying". lol
ok lah. i was doing something illegal. hahahahahahahha. bleahx. shall not say what.

anyways, today for buka had lotsa food to eat also. lol after that, prepared to go to geylang.
was so tiring man. bought lotsa stuff. clothes & FOOD.
of cos u go there confirm must buy dengdeng(BBQ meat) rite. mum bought for $12 sia. tsk tsk. and ramly burgers!! yeah mans. anyway. i got myself a baju kebaya. and it cose a freaking $62. i find it unreasonable though but i still bought it cos i only had eyes for that afterone whole round like around geylang. hahaha. and after that, while waiting for dad to fetch us, we waited at this one restaurant. and i was searching high and low for a freaking toilet. sheesh. so hard to find one lah.. in the end, went to the banquet one. tsk tsk. anyways, there was near a durian place. and i thnk its the durian place near qy's place. hahahahaha. so anyways, was slping in the taxi on the way home. reached home, immed bathed and here i am. a while more i'll go to slp bah.

so anyways, a special note to my special friend.
it's alright to be sad about certain stuff, but dun get addicted and be sad always.
it's part and parcel of life ya know. so think about it in a different perspective. it's better this way. so dun be sad cos i hate it when my frens are sad and i'm helpless about it. :)

some people are really testing my patience.
and i'm afraid i cant hold it anymore.

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so it's the first of the month. the fasting month. trying to feel calm.

anyways, it's the september holidays!

but there's no resting for us cos once the holidays are over, we have promos exams. omg!

anyways sad to say. this time. i dun have the feel/mood for it. this promos exams is more to like i wanna get it over and done with, rather than i'm gonna do well for it. tskkkkkk


anyways, yesterday, went for the nike run volunteer thingy. we had to report at the volunteer tent. while walking, it was super muddy. and qy walked a wrong path! lolol. her shoe was affected. anyways. after that. took our shirt and stuff. den took the bus and went to our area

at first. there were not many people. so we could still like offer the drinks to the ppl. but then. like thousands came. and we were rushing like mad i tell you. serious omg can. but overall i thnk its ok. had fun :) anyways, saw mr azman! lol.

after that. didnt stay for the concert cos was not interested. so met up with jiunhaur edwin and rina. ate at alif with jiunhaur and rina and jinghan came soon after. tsk tsk. those kukuheads.

ok i dunno what to say alr. so pictures time! anyways, i need to MUG but i cant :(




good luck people! i noe i need all the luck i can get :(

first of all, i am totally bushed. so please forgive me for any wrong spelling or grammer mistakes. so let's start from the very beginning of this week.

but before that, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JINGHAN! 18 le. so old. lol

on Monday, we had the mgt 40 questions test.
i was asked to sit in front since i was making noise. uh.
after which went for break. den was maths and went over to art gallery for the video booth
not many ppl did the video. so i had some of my classmates to do like nadia, shalani & faezah.
it was effing funny and i couldnt control but made some mistakes.
so anyways, tried to study budget test but i can never understand so its alright.
and then was gp and accounts. the test was pretty alright i guess.
after that, took chem paper from mrs chai.
OMG! she knows about my issue eh. but it's nothing serious lah. it's just my complaints but i'll learn to deal with it. since chem was just a consultation period, met with the rest at SAC to start doing the video. i guess this kind of thing really test our patience. like i tried to keep calm even though i was feeling supper angry over certain things. this is just part and parcel of life. learn to deal with it and move on. i only left sch at 8pm. freaking late.

on Tuesday, first two periods were PE. so we played frisbee. we were released cos i guess there was going to be a fire alarm later on. so i guess we were given time to settle down? after that, went for maths. and yes there was a fire drill exercise during the period so we all proceeded to the stadium. after that as usual went back to maths lesson. changed and went for break. got back our results for accounts test and i passed the budget test. but cashflow still sux. i hope i will do better in the exams. after that was break again so went to gp class. for gp is sorta per group thingy, so we went first so that can do other things later. den for malay we did imbuhans i thnk. kinda forgot le. after that. gotta go to the hall for the dry run of the teachers day performance. aishah accompanied me. the dry run ended at around 6 plus 7plus i guess. went home after that feeling super tired once again.

on Wednesday, we had ACES day in the morning. was kinda alright. mgt lesson went on as usual. den was pw and chemistry. nth much on that day. but for HTP, we had a drama grp to perform for us. it's a method used to impart certain knowledge to students. so anyways, after that, stayed behind to help rudin with the flags. after that, went to the hall to have a look at the teachers convention. cousin was there too. the teachers were very sporting. and some were very funny. especially with farhaan as the commentator. tsk tsk. so around 6 plus, left and proceeded home. super tired once again.

on Thursday, dad send us to sch since it was raining really heavily. and there were jams all over the place. like wth. was feeling super annoyed cos was going to be late. but anyhows. managed to reach sch on time and raise the flag. there was no morning assembly so pu2 students waited outside the hall. talking abt the gp exam, i am so fedup and dissappointed with myself for not listening to mdm ong's advice. she say avoid qn 11, i go and do qn 11. i really feel like crying lah. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. damn pek chek lah.. but comprehension was manageable i guess. :( sigh... after that. went to eat at canteen and faezah went to print her EOM at O hub. then went for maths extra lesson. i tell u. complex number is a sure killer when it comes out for promos. i am damn sadddddd cos i scared i cant cope with all this pressure... sigh.. promos ar promos. so then went to the hall to do the teachers day stuff. we had to stay till very late. and we even got scolding from the teachers as we couldnt get things done on the spot. we needed more time. but u cant blame us you see. this is the first time that we are doing this and i tell u, there are bound to be errors here and there. so all i can say, u cant put the total blame on us. and i guess there was a misunderstanding about the food. but i shall not emphasise on this but if whatever i potrayed is not what it is being seen by someone else, then there's nth else that i can do right? all i wanna say is that, i really did not mean it. sigh. i dunno. anyways, after the whole thing, we helped with the deco. we put the cloth up and because of that, we had to stay till like 9 plus in sch. but nevertheless, we still had fun, with jump shots here and there.lol..omg. i reached home at around 10 plus. it was super late. but i had to do the messages on the vanguard. i did everything and finally finished it at 2am in the morning. but was talking to qy on the phone at that time and saying about some times. i really dunno what to say mans.

today. had to reach sch at 7am to prepare everything. but overall, it was a success i think. shall not say much abt the celebration here cos you all know how it goes rite. but i think the students and teachers really enjoyed themselves. so anyways, stayed back to help out with the clearing and stuff. but was damn pissed off over certain issues. i believe qy is pissed off about the same reason as me. we then had the refreshments and sx and i went back to hillgrove. saw alot of familiar faces and some teachers like mrs chew, miss chong, miss chew, mr low etc. but talked to miss chong for quite long about sch stuff, maths stuff i mean. hurhur. she is a really wonderful teacher man i tell you. so anyways, hadnt seen some of them for sucha long time like cs, js, rina, huili, jasmine, kc, fq, ze, wk, james, jinghan and not forgetting jiunhaur! haha. u reach singapore le nv tell me! i could have fetched you =P lets go out more! :D then we went to eat at IMM and walked around. as usual, jiunhaur was being a monkey. lol. stay at singapore forever! :)

after this super long entry, my conclusion is i am feeling damn pekchek and upset with myself. period.

well first of all, i would like to say that sometimes, it's just best to put on a deaf ear and not hear anything at all.

so anyways, today went to grandma's house.
ate quite alot. so am damn full.
for the past few days, had been damn busy.

on thursday, for accounts, the test was cancelled and we went through ethics. thnk was quite ok..
den was PW. PW nth much. consulted mr toh about my EOM and i only gotta work on my A&E part. for GOI he said it was pretty alright. so i hope the author emails me soon...
went for break and then was mgt. had the open book test. was ok lah. den was maths. for maths, we continued with complex numbers. urgh. i kinda hate this topic. cos i thnk i will struggle in it... for PE, it was the FUN part! cos we did YOGA! the relaxation part was the best of all. i almost wanted to sleep.. went home after that. so tired.

on friday. for malay, as usual, we discussed about karangan. then went for break and then chemistry. for HTP, we had to write about our CCA records and all. after that. went for maths test. i think the retest was much harder than the actual test. but it's ok. teacher said she will take the best one out of the two. so if i did badly i will still get 14 :D then, went to eat at macs and went for the teachers' day meeting. we are in charge of the video and i still dont get why we are suppose to do that. so had a hard time figuring out the sequence and all. haiix. so went home quite late. but must be prepared to go home even later on monday...

you know when sometimes u are under pressure you tend to do some things which you tend to regret at a later part? hmmm.

and one more thing. just because when one is sad, it doesnt mean that he/she is emo. just felt like saying that.

p/s: wanna thank my close friends around me who had been listening to my craps and caring for me :D you know who you are. lol

first of all, i wanna say that.
PW has really made me stressed out and because of that, i have done some things that was way out of my league. but there's no point in saying all these now. it will just make me more stress and any crying wont help it one bit. hmmm

so today for mgt, as usual. was slacking
and for PW, mdm siti was the speaker. and i was listening. like really listening. and i agree with what she says.
everything that we do, we have to have a purpose behind it. only from there can we reach our ultimate aim.
went for break den chemistry
went thru papers for chemistry and for HTP, we had a talk by an accounting person.

after that, went to the booths and took all the free stuff. heh heh.
then took 188 to IMM and ate hor fun! like finally! v nice eh the hor fun :D i love. somemore got 2 prawns! hahaha.

can u see my 2 prawns? yeahh.

then was so pek chek abt the fileat daiso.
after that, went back to JEC and went to buy tix.
watched meet dave. before that, we camwhored in the cinema
and qy was so toot. she like dunno how to use my phone to take picture. -.-"

read her blog to noe more.
anyways the movie damn funny. and not bad lah. but we were both like poor sia till we got no money to buy popcorn. LOL
after that, took 66 back home.

on the way home, i was thinking about alot of stuff.
like school, family & friends.
i really wonder what's my movitation. and only today i found out that it was obvious that i had self-movitation all along..

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HERRY :D

i have a sad sad life
thats what i feel.

sigh, there's just so many things to do but so little time to finish them
it's like, i see myself being cheerful in sch, but when will this facade ever stop?
i dont know if i can continue putting up a brave front in front of everybody and acting as if everything is okay. i dont know if i had the strength to do so. sigh..

i'm just too stressed out. urgh. i hate this feeling.
i seriously need a break from everything.
but that's not gonna work. haiix

lifesux.

OMG
i am so fedup with myself
i dont know what to do about my EOM anymore
i dont know what to do about PW anymore
i dont know what to do about my studies anymore
i dont know what to do about my life anymore.

everything is going the wrong direction
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
urgh.

HELLO everyone xD

anyways today was a fun fun fun day! :D

first of all, started the day with urm. malay.
did mostly karangan things lah.
den was break and chem
for chem we went thru the paper.
for HTP, we had lessons on SEX EDUCATION
hahahaha. everyone got high. but the funny part was when nikki did that thing. HAHAHA.
after that, went to meet hayati at Jurong
bought tickets for a journey to the centre of the earth
the show is alright lah. hahha. (:
but the stupid kids behind were way too rowdy that i felt like slapping them
and the couple next to me. urm. they were kissing. like OMG! and i stared at them. and the guy stared at me. and then we went out of the theater cos end of movie le. wuahahaha.
why, of all places, they have to do it there?

and, dont mind me saying this. sometimes i'm just angry with those race.
i mean you cant blame me because i noe not all of them are like that.
but they made it seems like it is.
the kids behind me were, and the couple were also.
i got so fed up with their actions but u cannot blame me because that is my own view. seriously eh... why.

after the movie, went to IMM to eat. i had minced meat noodles again (: nv get tired of it. but i wanna try the hor fun next time. hahaha. after that, walked around then went back to westmall. i brought breads home. hhahaha.

had a fun time with hayati today. how long since i last saw her? like eons ago.. catched up a bit. and in times to come, wont be seeing her cos i'll be concentrating on my promos and H1 A's. but after that, more outings k! :D

so anyways, side track abit. i just feel like saying something.
i kinda hate it when people cant keep to promises. i mean if u had made a promise and you cant keep it, why make it in the first place? if u had made a promise and u thnk u cant fulfill it, cant u like at least tell the person, or at least do something about it, rather than the person taking the initiative to do so? i got so fed up with these kind of people, i just cant stand it.sigh.

ouh, on another note. i just feel like asking my readers this.
why do people like to create hate tags on people tagboards and then remain anonymous? if you have the guts to say that u hate the person, why dont you have the guts to name yourself for the actions that you did? i dunno, i just feel like saying that.

so to whoever who had been victims before, don't freaking care about them because they are just plain stupid people (:

on a brighter note. chemistry seems clearer to me. but there's still a lot of work needed to be done. teacher said i look stress today. got meh????

anyways, my brother freaking broke my 4x4 but i managed to assemble it back! huahahahahaha. am i genius or what. :D

freaking pw
freaking tests
freaking promos
freaking everything!

ouh, i just realised that today is 080808. nice number :D

so anyways, here are some pictures. there's more but these are the main ones that i wish to blog about =P

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION (:

FAEZAH'S FACE ON THE BOARD. EVERYONE MUST GO SEE! lolol (feazah, dun be angry i put this up ar. hahahahaha. nice what)


kuku pictures taken i dunno when. hahahahaha.

ok i have an interview to go tmr. hope i pass and get the job! :D
but kinda sad lah qy cant go cos she was the one who intro me one eh. see lah. why u born so late. =P

ouh, i just had 5 hours of so called "nap". feel so damn tired can. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

today had national day celebration in school.
had to reach sch early for the supposedly dry run.
in the end we did when everyone was seated alr

i thnk the parade was ok lah
damn excited can. but when i was standing at sedia position, this stupid mosquito was at my leg lah
so damn irritating can. i felt like killing it but cant move
furthermore, i was sweating like hell -.- and my sweat went into my eyes. wah my eyes damn pain. ahahaha

anyways, after that, went to change and join the rest in the hall
the performances were all damn nice. and the sing-a-long, SCs went on stage. huahahaha
we had fun singing lah to all the NDP songs. hahahaha

after that, went to eat with aishah & faezah
hahahahaha. aishah damn excited cos first time she eating pizza hut with us
at first, we wanted to eat at lot 1's pizza hut
but so many ppl, and we had to wait for 40 minutes man.
so then we changed destination to eat at jelapang's one
haha damn empty sia the place
we were all super full after that

and here i am home sweet home.
i have a few photos to post here but it's in the other com.
lol. wait for it k faezah. hurhur

i dun care about anyone's feeling here so i'm just gonna type what i feel

so what if mdm ong said that the literature part is correct?
you shouldnt had just DIRECTLY lifting OUR GOI from our EOM.
if it's that's simple, will i still ask u to do?
i can even do it myself. and it's word for word. our EOM is not even well done and you wanna use it. then i can conclude that it's not a good lit review.

whatever lah, i dun even wanna tok to you anymore and i dun care what the teacher is going to say. scold me if she wants, i am never going to work together with you. even if it kills me.

heh heh!
marching seems fun :D
it seems like marching with blazer is not so hot after all.
i would prefer it than wearing just the long sleeves.
ANYWAYS, i got so damn pek chek just now over certain issues for which i shall not mention here. but i'll be going to Sunburst Camp! woooooohoooooo. looks fun!

anyways, looking back, i got more and more pissed off with myself
why did i even trusted that someone when i knew that she/he isnt making any sense?
how blind i was... tsk.

YESTERDAY WAS SPECTACULAR! :D

well, as usual, ms CQY was late. lol. she still said she will NOT be late eh. hahaha. so anyways. she had to treat popcorn for the movie! LOL. maybe we should do this more often. then i will have free popcorn. HAHAHAHA.

ok anyways, we watched money no enough II. the show is damn nice and damn saddening lah. i cried :( especially where they showed the parts of the mother that one.. ehhh. really damn sad lah. recommended to watch (: prepare tissue ok. yah lah yah lah. i cried first. ahahahaha. :D

after that, went to do duty at MI.Mart. ok lah the place. alot of people. v hot also!!! urgh. i left the place early. to go to the hotel. kinda regretted cos the offers at the end were like simply irresistable. LOL.

so anyways, made my way to Riz Carlton! the place damn nice. the view also damn spectacular. hahaha. watched the NDP preview from the hotel room. and the fireworks too! hahahah. damn nice.

after that, my phone went dead cos the battery went flat -.-" and i didnt bring charger! urgh. so slept early and checked out today at 12pm. went to eat lunch and here i am at home. so tiiiiiiiiiiiired lah... sigh... tmr there's sch and its for a LONG DAY ALSO LAH. eeeee :(

i'm tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired to do anything seh.

FIREWORKS I!

FIREWORKS II!

the black knights! and the heart :D

at the M.I MART. hehehehehehe

YO!
i'm back from a HOT & SUNNY DAY. haha

so anyways, today had meeting at 0730 at SAC
after that, mrs chai told me the news about the Sunburst camp? (is that how it's spelt?)
i was damn shock lah. cos they choosed it based on the top few students in SC?

so anyways, i'm too tired to blog rite now
so for now, pictures:

we were supposed to act like paikias. but this kuku michelle ar. was like laughing lah. in the end i also laughed. and the pic turns out like this. HAHAHAHA

HEHEHE :D busybodies.

preparing for photo taking

this is nice =)

CY! LOL

QY & I

hohoho. mich me and qy

the 3 musketeers. LOL

KUKU aishah lah with my blazer. look at that face!

my kuku best friends with my tie. lol. toot toot. tsk tsk!

ok i'm tirrrrrreddddddd.

hmmmm
after i thought it really carefully and wisely,
and i decided to type it here.

yesterday night, i admit i was crying my hearts out
i was so stressed, i couldnt take it anymore.
and i breakdown on the spot.
till this morning when i woke up, my eyes were sorta swollen. and it was dreading it every single moment.
but today still passed as usual. with lessons going on and tests and extra lessons.
tmr aint any worse.

hmmmm. i thnk i cried cos i was thinking about so many things.
friendship, family and personall stuffs.
friendship problem was the main cause of it. idk. sometimes you just have to wonder.
and you must try to let it go and look things at a different perspective.
i for once, did try that. and i dunno if it's working. maybe i shall just try.

let's hope i will not cry again tonight :)
oh anyways, happy birthday to wanyi! :D you are damn old alr. hahahah. not like me, so young.

but it's like the first time since i cried in a long time. but i felt better after letting it all out. like. when you are too stressed with information overload on PW stuffs, Friendship issues, Family matters and your own personal beliefs and there's no one who you can really turn to at that time, isn't it better if you just shut yourself down? hmmm,idk.

ouh there's so much to do tmr.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. another breakdown man.

before i go out, i would like to blog.

first of all, i'm still damn pissed over the ezlink thingy. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

secondly, am i the only one herewho have hands and legs?
why cant they do it themselves?

and i'll be cashless soon. and stupid sch is using the cashcard system yet again. zzzzzz.

ahhh, i just have too many complaints but too little time.

i'm so saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i lost my ezlink.
:(

but on brighter note, i'm damn happy with my results!
for the first time, i PASSED all my subjects!
so here they are:


HUAHAHAHHA. damn happy
then, my mum sorta celebrated for me by going to Jurong Point to have hot plate. hahaha
we went to survey laptops too. hmmmmmmmmmm

anyways. my MTP was SUPER fast. went there, talked to mdm wang then went to JP. huahahahaha. its like a mere 10 minutes? LOL.

anyways, i'm too sad to blog cos of my ezlink. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

such a tiring day man!

was in no mood to do anything at all.

so, early in the morning, went to meet qiaoying for breakfast. she was damn early sia! so i wasnt late. HAHAHA. so we went to sch pretty early and saw many ppl wearing traditional costumes. oh, btw, HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY EVERYONE! anyways, yah. so went for morning assembly after that.

mgt was pretty ok. couldnt really focus as usual. was feeling sleepy like every single minute man. we had alot of breaks. thank god. then was maths. urm i kinda told the teacher that she was teaching slow and all, and that we shouldnt waste time doing assignments in class and even practices cos we were so used to doing it at home. and i thnk she took it to heart. oh wells.

for GP, i thnk it was very productive so i hope i can score in my essay next time around. as for POA, rather not talk about it. failed both tests. feeling super tired.

for Chem, did the section A paper. was ok lah. really cracking our heads man. but overall was ok. so have to do section B at home. SIGHHHHHHHHH.

reach home pretty late. and all i can thnk of now is my bed. i'm THAT tired. there's PE tmr. BOOOOOOO!

Let me first say that this entry is not targeted at anyone. i am just saying my own views and i believe that no one should feel affected by this. anyways, what's a blog for if not for venting out feelings rite?

Yesterday was a successful event. i would like to thank all the participants for being there and being part of it! and i believe everyone had fun and enjoyed themselves! thank you once again :D

but behind it all, i was damn stressed.

we started off rough. we were rude to the participants and i guess that was why they didn't want to give us their attention when we were talking. i was giving out instructions and so was aishah and all we could here were noises and we couldnt really hear ourselves talking. and when some of us told them to keep quiet and listen, we were blamed for not being polite.

we were supposed to reach at 0930. and so were the belayers. so, qy, aishah, aqilah, hanis and i reached first. we were so stressed about the bandana thingy cos it was so last minute. in the end, we bought bandages. YES, it was really to a last resort. and so we waited for the rest to come, although we said that they shouldnt be late. in the end, we reached the place at 10 plus. and they only started climbing at 1030. and it was supposed to be me, qiao ying and shalani who were supposed to fetch the participants and in the end, shalani and i went. and we were late for fetching the participants and i know that it was my fault. and i apologise for that. PLUS, wani & her cousin couldnt go cos of a last minute thing and do anyone know how stressed i was because we had to reshuffle the groups yet again? i dont think so. and of cos, we couldnt blame the participants rite.

so we reached the rock climbing place and all. we put alot of buffer time and we had to push up the time and all cos the participants had too much of a leisure time. i mean. doesnt anyone know that we were stressed becos of this? we had to discuss about the reshuffling of time and all this. and when we do, we neglected the participants. and i do apologise for this.

so we left the rock climbing place earlier. and it was agreed that they were supposed to meet at 345 after having lunch. at that time, it was 3.00pm. i asked shalani to leave first because it was already agreed that they were to meet at 345. so qy reached the place late had to rush eating. and both of them called me to tell me abt the timing as they needed more time to eat. i i agreed to changing it to 4pm. little did i noe that because of this, a conflict sparked. and again, i apologise for this because i believe that it was my fault for not telling either of them that they needed more time to eat. reason being, we did not estimate that the bus journey would be half hour.

for the obstacle games, it was going on well. we finished earlier than expected. and i believed that we didnt need to keep to time. until a certain thing happened. there were only 3 of us left to take charge and i thank aishah for stepping up cos i was feeling stressed and i had to take over qy for the point system and all.

after the whole thing, we had a trash out session with mdm ong. and i believed my mistake was not delegating work equally. so as the leader, i take full responsibility for taking the blame of what happened yesterday and i believed that her sister should not have confronted hanis at that point of time as we were in the middle of game. because of this, it disrupts everything. and again, do not be affected by what i said as this is just what i think.

there were alot of changes for the obstacle games and doesnt anyone know how stressed it is not keeping to schedule? the water dog and bone had to be changed to 4 groups playing at one time. the charades in a line was changed to a different way of playing it. the trust your friend coulnt be played and we had to change the game to the standing up game and entangled. isnt all these enough to show our stress level? i mean aishah's and my stress level.

and i believe there was another conflict about me asking shalani to join grp 1 in the charades in a line. let me explain the rationale behind me asking her to go there. there were only 4 ppl in the group while the rest had 5 ppl in the group. so i had shalani to join in the grp so that there will be equal ppl in the grp. i didnt know that this would be taken seriously. even if there were leaders in the front of the grp, they didnt do anything as it was aishah and me who asked the front ppl to tell us the asnwers. i guess it didnt turn out the way it should be.

after the trashing out session, i believe our group has to work doubly hard based on delegation of work and communication. and let us hope that its from the beginning where we started off anew.

and i would like to apologise again because i didnt know that the food prepared by shalani's mother was for us. because from what i remembered, shalani told me that the food prepared was for her, her sisters and friends as they were lazy to go out and see. and as such, she said that if we wanted, we could take also as it is halal too. and even so, she could have announced that her mum had prepared some food for us and if anyone wanted, they could? maybe it was a misintepretation on my part. so i apologise again for that.

on a final note, i believe that qiaoying and shalani had undergo what someone would say, the worst day of their life. maybe not the worst. but one of the worst. and i just wanna say that i will be there for you and what's a grp for if not for understanding and helping one another rite?

and one more thing is that. i hate rumours. i mean. rumours is one such evil thing. if you heard a rumours, and you dont even noe that its true. shouldnt you NOT spread it? i mean by spreading it, you agrees with it. and as such, when the rumours concerns me, of course i will be angry. so all i have to say is, be careful of what you hear and say. it concerns everyone around you.

p/s: in the middle of our trashing out session, it began to rain. and damn heavily somemore! so we all rushed in the tent. and qy was like super scared of water sia. she kept shouting -.-. in the end, we all agreed that the tent could not hold the rain -.-" so we went out and started dismentling it. we asked mdm ong to go in the shelter but she wouldnt budge. damn funny lah she. so in the end, we closed the tent and rushed to the toilet's shelter. we were all damn wet lah. ahahahahha. in the end, changed and we took 176 home. hoho. super cold.

sigh. PW is really stressing me out.
somehow i wish that life is better.

being smart SUX

so it's the start of yet another hectic week i shall say?

so had BIG BREAKFAST with QiaoYing & Maisha in the morning.
so we reached school kinda early so went to SAC to slack.
den aishah say got something happened at the stadium and asked me to come.
well, she didnt sound convincing. haha. but i still came.
and she gave me a big wallet shop plastic. inside got bag lah. it's their belated birthday present to me! hahaaha. i was shocked lah. all i can say is thank you and i love your very strong! hahahaha.
there was a card inside and my kuku picture was printed on it. OMG can.

to me :D

the card. hahahaha. not bad eh. v nice :D

the bag they bought for me.
hahahaha. actually my black one also spoil le leh. got hole. hahahaha.
so just nice. i have a new sling bag! one more thing off my wishlist. hahahaha.

so anyways, back to today.
for MOB, we had to combine class cos we were going to get back our papers.
as usual, i fail lah. and it's a very pathetic mark. sigh. MOB MOB. when will i ever change my mindset of it. sigh...
ok after that was break and then was maths.
double break was spent at the cafe and art gallery. was so damn funny. lucky didnt get caught! hahaha.
for GP, we did an essay qn again and i thnk i'm getting the hang of it. let's hope i can pass my GP!
for accounts, we finished up on decision-making. and was released early.
for chemistry, finished up the MCQ questions.

urm. lucky there's no homework. so i guess i shall take a nap, or might as well sleep now. so damn tired. but before that. here is 2 overdue pictures:

kuku qiaoying cool specs!

our logo ((: nice rite! hahaha

ok. GOOD NITE EVERYONE.

p/s: tmr will be getting back malay overall marks. i really hope i pass! :(