Monday, July 28, 2008

hmmmm
after i thought it really carefully and wisely,
and i decided to type it here.

yesterday night, i admit i was crying my hearts out
i was so stressed, i couldnt take it anymore.
and i breakdown on the spot.
till this morning when i woke up, my eyes were sorta swollen. and it was dreading it every single moment.
but today still passed as usual. with lessons going on and tests and extra lessons.
tmr aint any worse.

hmmmm. i thnk i cried cos i was thinking about so many things.
friendship, family and personall stuffs.
friendship problem was the main cause of it. idk. sometimes you just have to wonder.
and you must try to let it go and look things at a different perspective.
i for once, did try that. and i dunno if it's working. maybe i shall just try.

let's hope i will not cry again tonight :)
oh anyways, happy birthday to wanyi! :D you are damn old alr. hahahah. not like me, so young.

but it's like the first time since i cried in a long time. but i felt better after letting it all out. like. when you are too stressed with information overload on PW stuffs, Friendship issues, Family matters and your own personal beliefs and there's no one who you can really turn to at that time, isn't it better if you just shut yourself down? hmmm,idk.

ouh there's so much to do tmr.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. another breakdown man.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

before i go out, i would like to blog.

first of all, i'm still damn pissed over the ezlink thingy. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

secondly, am i the only one herewho have hands and legs?
why cant they do it themselves?

and i'll be cashless soon. and stupid sch is using the cashcard system yet again. zzzzzz.

ahhh, i just have too many complaints but too little time.

Friday, July 25, 2008

i'm so saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i lost my ezlink.
:(

but on brighter note, i'm damn happy with my results!
for the first time, i PASSED all my subjects!
so here they are:


HUAHAHAHHA. damn happy
then, my mum sorta celebrated for me by going to Jurong Point to have hot plate. hahaha
we went to survey laptops too. hmmmmmmmmmm

anyways. my MTP was SUPER fast. went there, talked to mdm wang then went to JP. huahahahaha. its like a mere 10 minutes? LOL.

anyways, i'm too sad to blog cos of my ezlink. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Monday, July 21, 2008

such a tiring day man!

was in no mood to do anything at all.

so, early in the morning, went to meet qiaoying for breakfast. she was damn early sia! so i wasnt late. HAHAHA. so we went to sch pretty early and saw many ppl wearing traditional costumes. oh, btw, HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY EVERYONE! anyways, yah. so went for morning assembly after that.

mgt was pretty ok. couldnt really focus as usual. was feeling sleepy like every single minute man. we had alot of breaks. thank god. then was maths. urm i kinda told the teacher that she was teaching slow and all, and that we shouldnt waste time doing assignments in class and even practices cos we were so used to doing it at home. and i thnk she took it to heart. oh wells.

for GP, i thnk it was very productive so i hope i can score in my essay next time around. as for POA, rather not talk about it. failed both tests. feeling super tired.

for Chem, did the section A paper. was ok lah. really cracking our heads man. but overall was ok. so have to do section B at home. SIGHHHHHHHHH.

reach home pretty late. and all i can thnk of now is my bed. i'm THAT tired. there's PE tmr. BOOOOOOO!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Let me first say that this entry is not targeted at anyone. i am just saying my own views and i believe that no one should feel affected by this. anyways, what's a blog for if not for venting out feelings rite?

Yesterday was a successful event. i would like to thank all the participants for being there and being part of it! and i believe everyone had fun and enjoyed themselves! thank you once again :D

but behind it all, i was damn stressed.

we started off rough. we were rude to the participants and i guess that was why they didn't want to give us their attention when we were talking. i was giving out instructions and so was aishah and all we could here were noises and we couldnt really hear ourselves talking. and when some of us told them to keep quiet and listen, we were blamed for not being polite.

we were supposed to reach at 0930. and so were the belayers. so, qy, aishah, aqilah, hanis and i reached first. we were so stressed about the bandana thingy cos it was so last minute. in the end, we bought bandages. YES, it was really to a last resort. and so we waited for the rest to come, although we said that they shouldnt be late. in the end, we reached the place at 10 plus. and they only started climbing at 1030. and it was supposed to be me, qiao ying and shalani who were supposed to fetch the participants and in the end, shalani and i went. and we were late for fetching the participants and i know that it was my fault. and i apologise for that. PLUS, wani & her cousin couldnt go cos of a last minute thing and do anyone know how stressed i was because we had to reshuffle the groups yet again? i dont think so. and of cos, we couldnt blame the participants rite.

so we reached the rock climbing place and all. we put alot of buffer time and we had to push up the time and all cos the participants had too much of a leisure time. i mean. doesnt anyone know that we were stressed becos of this? we had to discuss about the reshuffling of time and all this. and when we do, we neglected the participants. and i do apologise for this.

so we left the rock climbing place earlier. and it was agreed that they were supposed to meet at 345 after having lunch. at that time, it was 3.00pm. i asked shalani to leave first because it was already agreed that they were to meet at 345. so qy reached the place late had to rush eating. and both of them called me to tell me abt the timing as they needed more time to eat. i i agreed to changing it to 4pm. little did i noe that because of this, a conflict sparked. and again, i apologise for this because i believe that it was my fault for not telling either of them that they needed more time to eat. reason being, we did not estimate that the bus journey would be half hour.

for the obstacle games, it was going on well. we finished earlier than expected. and i believed that we didnt need to keep to time. until a certain thing happened. there were only 3 of us left to take charge and i thank aishah for stepping up cos i was feeling stressed and i had to take over qy for the point system and all.

after the whole thing, we had a trash out session with mdm ong. and i believed my mistake was not delegating work equally. so as the leader, i take full responsibility for taking the blame of what happened yesterday and i believed that her sister should not have confronted hanis at that point of time as we were in the middle of game. because of this, it disrupts everything. and again, do not be affected by what i said as this is just what i think.

there were alot of changes for the obstacle games and doesnt anyone know how stressed it is not keeping to schedule? the water dog and bone had to be changed to 4 groups playing at one time. the charades in a line was changed to a different way of playing it. the trust your friend coulnt be played and we had to change the game to the standing up game and entangled. isnt all these enough to show our stress level? i mean aishah's and my stress level.

and i believe there was another conflict about me asking shalani to join grp 1 in the charades in a line. let me explain the rationale behind me asking her to go there. there were only 4 ppl in the group while the rest had 5 ppl in the group. so i had shalani to join in the grp so that there will be equal ppl in the grp. i didnt know that this would be taken seriously. even if there were leaders in the front of the grp, they didnt do anything as it was aishah and me who asked the front ppl to tell us the asnwers. i guess it didnt turn out the way it should be.

after the trashing out session, i believe our group has to work doubly hard based on delegation of work and communication. and let us hope that its from the beginning where we started off anew.

and i would like to apologise again because i didnt know that the food prepared by shalani's mother was for us. because from what i remembered, shalani told me that the food prepared was for her, her sisters and friends as they were lazy to go out and see. and as such, she said that if we wanted, we could take also as it is halal too. and even so, she could have announced that her mum had prepared some food for us and if anyone wanted, they could? maybe it was a misintepretation on my part. so i apologise again for that.

on a final note, i believe that qiaoying and shalani had undergo what someone would say, the worst day of their life. maybe not the worst. but one of the worst. and i just wanna say that i will be there for you and what's a grp for if not for understanding and helping one another rite?

and one more thing is that. i hate rumours. i mean. rumours is one such evil thing. if you heard a rumours, and you dont even noe that its true. shouldnt you NOT spread it? i mean by spreading it, you agrees with it. and as such, when the rumours concerns me, of course i will be angry. so all i have to say is, be careful of what you hear and say. it concerns everyone around you.

p/s: in the middle of our trashing out session, it began to rain. and damn heavily somemore! so we all rushed in the tent. and qy was like super scared of water sia. she kept shouting -.-. in the end, we all agreed that the tent could not hold the rain -.-" so we went out and started dismentling it. we asked mdm ong to go in the shelter but she wouldnt budge. damn funny lah she. so in the end, we closed the tent and rushed to the toilet's shelter. we were all damn wet lah. ahahahahha. in the end, changed and we took 176 home. hoho. super cold.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

sigh. PW is really stressing me out.
somehow i wish that life is better.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

being smart SUX

Monday, July 14, 2008

so it's the start of yet another hectic week i shall say?

so had BIG BREAKFAST with QiaoYing & Maisha in the morning.
so we reached school kinda early so went to SAC to slack.
den aishah say got something happened at the stadium and asked me to come.
well, she didnt sound convincing. haha. but i still came.
and she gave me a big wallet shop plastic. inside got bag lah. it's their belated birthday present to me! hahaaha. i was shocked lah. all i can say is thank you and i love your very strong! hahahaha.
there was a card inside and my kuku picture was printed on it. OMG can.

to me :D

the card. hahahaha. not bad eh. v nice :D

the bag they bought for me.
hahahaha. actually my black one also spoil le leh. got hole. hahahaha.
so just nice. i have a new sling bag! one more thing off my wishlist. hahahaha.

so anyways, back to today.
for MOB, we had to combine class cos we were going to get back our papers.
as usual, i fail lah. and it's a very pathetic mark. sigh. MOB MOB. when will i ever change my mindset of it. sigh...
ok after that was break and then was maths.
double break was spent at the cafe and art gallery. was so damn funny. lucky didnt get caught! hahaha.
for GP, we did an essay qn again and i thnk i'm getting the hang of it. let's hope i can pass my GP!
for accounts, we finished up on decision-making. and was released early.
for chemistry, finished up the MCQ questions.

urm. lucky there's no homework. so i guess i shall take a nap, or might as well sleep now. so damn tired. but before that. here is 2 overdue pictures:

kuku qiaoying cool specs!

our logo ((: nice rite! hahaha

ok. GOOD NITE EVERYONE.

p/s: tmr will be getting back malay overall marks. i really hope i pass! :(

Saturday, July 12, 2008

you know that you should draw the line when you've done more than enough.

so went to make the tshirts at queensway just now.
late queen was late again. hurhur. we found a shop that was able to give us $7 per shirt. we really bargained man. so yeah. cool rite. the logo is super cool also! and colour chosen was navy blue. hope it turns out alright.

after that, we went to jurong east and ate at the food court.
we both had minced meat chicken noodle. damn nice. and damn fulling lah. i swear i was damn full. so then we went to walk around GIANT and purchased some tidbits and all. after that, took 66 back home.

am so damn tired rite now. tmr still got karaoke whole day.
oh man. why is there so many things to do yet so little time.
sorry for the lack of updates. been busy these days.

on thursday, first period was accounts so we continued lessons with a new chapter: decision making. sounds so much like management rite. haha. it's somehow inter-related lah.. then next week there's budget test. sigh.. can die man.

after which was GP lesson. we had a new timetable. and we got back our GP results. at first teacher showed on the screen our marks lah. and i saw that for my essay i got 15/50 and my compre 25/50. in the end, my essay was switched with aishah's. ohmygod. i hate teachers who do that man. really eh. so in the end my essay got 19/50 and my compre is 25/50. so total i got a 44/100. one more mark to an E man :( but it was a real shock cos i got the highest for compre? tyco on my part again. ohmygod.

so after that was break rite. ate at the canteen then went to the bookshop. hahaha. that's aishah's fav hangout. LOL.

after that was mgt rite. a very funny thing happened yet again. when mr chelvam was setting up his laptop. aishah and i saw something like jump/leap from his laptop ar. i thought it wa something black and aishah thought it was a rubber band. in the end, when both of us bent down to see what it was. we saw that it was a bug. and our reaction took so long to react, in the end, both of us ran away from our seats and faezah followed suit. i thnk she didnt know what was happening in the first place. hahahahaha. so it was like last time, where mr chelvam was the hero who took the bug out. haha. and nikki helped too i thnk. i thnk all the insects are attracted to mr chelvam -.-"

for maths, we started on a new topic. urm. ihavenocomments here. but faezah aishah and i were busy laughing cos of certain thing. i smelled something very smelly and so did them. and guess what faezah said: the trees farted. OMG. i was laughing like mad lah.. hahaha

and for PE, we did silat and wushu? quite fun uh. haha.

as for friday. was expecting to get back malay paper. but my teacher didnt come. and we ended up doing listening comprehension -.-" and for chemistry, we went thru paper 1 and all. and that was it. quite a short day. so we collected quite a sum of money from the people. and then qy and i went to watch WANTED at jurong point! hahahaha. the movie damn nice! :D but in the end the girl died arh. sad part. but ending was great. there was a point where the scenes kept changing, was confused for a minute. then, we waited for qy's friend to come and then went to eat at banquet. after which, took the bus and went home. just in time to catch the 9pm show. but i slept pretty early sia. hahahaha. too tired what.

so i'm going to queenways later i thnk. to make RCR Tshirts. HUAHAHA.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

today was pretty alright.

i was late for breakfast. SORRY QY!
hahahaha. and you know what the dumbest thing was? i set my alarm to 6.00PM! instead of AM! tsk tsk. so, quickly bathed and all and went to meet her. then, it started raining. so we had to assemble at the hall. anyways, while waiting for bus, saw izwan and chatted for a while..

for IRP, we had a new copy of TIMES Mag so have to do the worksheet lah. then for mgt, mr chelvam just carried on with lessons. i guess maybe we will get our papers tmr? after that, went for break cos our PW lesson was switched.

then came chemistry. i was so scared that i would fail. so when teacher asked us to take back our scripts, i was quite shocked. i counted that i got a C at first cos she said that the total marks was over 120. but it was over 110 and i got a B! i was so damn HAPPY can??!! from common test i got a U, i got a B! cool increase :D but it's only because of certain reason (and faezah noes why!) so i was not entirely that happy. and i cant believe that i was the highest when mrs chai announced those who passed? urm. i really believe it was tyco on my part. like seriously.

then for HTP, was a presentation by the E club members. we were released and it was meeting time. i was quite shocked. and i shall not mention here. hahaha.

ok. so far my mid year results are these:
1) Maths: 87/100
2) POA: 66/100
3) Chemistry: 64.5/100
but my other subjects shall suck. cos mdm ong said that GP, only 2 ppl passed in our class. so obviously that means i failed rite. as for mgt, dont talk abt it. it's confimed a U yet again. and malay? i hope i can still get a B? :(

ouh. my cat went for sterilization(is that how it's spelt?) yesterday and i thnk it's making things worse. she's not as active as before. maybe she needs time to recover. hope she will be like before.. i kinda miss playing with her. ouh. i'm so tired. boo!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

today is considered the first official sch day of term 3.
that means that it's disaster day!
cos it's the getting-back-results day.

so first lesson was PE
THANK GOD it rained. so we were released one period early.
well i thnk the cafe should be moved to the canteen. it's like flooded with students. hence, making the canteen more empty. yeah rite.
anyways, after that was maths. ok we knew who our maths teacher. it's mrs chong.
and we got back our scripts.
i got an 87/100 for maths! but was damn sad cos there were alot of careless mistakes. LIKE SADDDDDDDDDDDDDD LAH. sigh.. i believe i could have done better. hmmm.
then, went for break and all. and i thnk the canteen food is DEPROVING. so limited.
then for accounts, get back paper as well. for paper 1 i got a 62.5 and paper 2 i got 70! and one of the highest in mr tan's class. wahahahahaha. damn happy noe. cos is accounts leh! but as usual, faezah is like the highest.. that smart ass. hahaha.
so anyways, after that was PW.
PW is just tiring me out... there's just too many things to be done..
then went for break before going for mt.
teacher say we will only get back paper on friday. so she went thru oral.
and like. i was so damn pissed off at myself for not saying such a simple example like MAS SELAMAT for my oral! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
forget it. it's over. SIGH!

ok so i guess tmr is FAILING DAY. cos will be getting back papers that i'm gonna fail in. like mgt and chemistry. sigh.

and yah. i noe it's late alr. but pls bring ur ODT ppl. tmr got check!

and there's council meeting tmr. guess they are gonna announce the roles?

Saturday, July 5, 2008

HELLO!
back from a tiring but FUN day!

so was supposed to meet faezah at jurong east mrt station at 945am. but i left my house super early, and so we arrived damn early. haha. but there were so many people in the train. we only got to sit at urm. raffles? i think. so we took the loooooooooooooooooong train ride to pasir ris. waited for the rest to come at macs. ate sausage mcmuffin :D wahahahaha. and saw alot of army guys -.-" anyways, we proceeded to MJC after that and had to chase bus number 3 -.-"

in the bus, there was this guy, sitting near us. i was looking at him and he was looking at me. and he waved at me. and i was thinking that he looks damn familiar. and i was trying hard to thnk. HAHA. kuku qiaoying still say he could be my ex. yeah rite -.-" so anyways, when we alighted from the bus, (he was an MJ-ian btw), i asked him if we knew each other and all. and we did! he was a PAE student of MI and a fellow BARNEY! :D LOL.

ok so anyways, we arrived at the wall and all. and started soon after. the crew were friendly and all. we did the normal rock climbing first. followed by the blind fold one. de blindfold one not bad. but it is rather time-consuming. and faezah cheated! hahaha. ok so anyways, we ended at around 2 plus and gave them the chocolates! so we have alooooooooooooot of work to be done, i can tell you.

we then proceeded to downtown east to have our lunch at the foodcourt. then, we proceeded to pasir ris park to play the obstacle games.

we played alot of games. and i thnk the most fun we had was the water dog and bone. and all i can tell u is, REVENGE IS SWEET! ok anyways, we ended at around 430 and faezah qy and i stayed for a while and went to the sea and took pictures. hahaha. then we got changed and left pasir ris park. then, it's the loooooooooooooooooon train ride home again. haha.

so here are some of the pictures taken today:

with the meridians and mr chua! :D nice rite!

with the wall and ropes?


:D

Thursday, July 3, 2008

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ARH
my mid years are finally over!
like it's really a load off my shoulders
was so stressed up. BUT, there's still PW. sighhh.

ok so anyways, today was my last paper, POA P2
met qiaoying for breakfast and someone was early for once. hahaha.
so tried to squeeze in the theories but to no avail. so just heck and decided to go for it.
so during the exams, i made ALOT of careless mistakes like seeing the year wrong and all. luckily i got change. sigh.. really at the last minute leh. but in the end, dunno correct anot lor. but its ok. i thnk i noe my fate. tsk.

ok so after that. went for a short meeting with the group.
and i shall not say much. due to certain issues. but yeah. let's hope everything goes well on saturday...

so me and faezah head to jurong point to catch a movie.
we just missed 174 by a few seconds and had to wait for another bus.
was so hot lah. so was complaining alot.
anyways, when we board the bus, the uncle that was sitting in the same row as us was carrying a kitten in this bag. the kitten was so cute. and noisy too. reminds me of CACA. bet faezah was damn scared at that time cos the uncle showed us the kitten. he said it was being thrown in the rubbish bin. how cruel...

so when we reached jurong point, went to see the movie times. we couldnt decide between hancock and wanted. and in the end, we watched:

HANCOCK.
the show is super nice! and hillarious! your should go watch :D and faezah and i were damn shocked that the movie tix were only $6! so cheap ehs. den we smuggle food and drinks in. but we still bought food from the counter. hahaha.


after that,went to eat at macs and drank double chocs :D
den went to popular and i bought the 50 cents pen again! HAHAHA.
ok anyways, after that, went back home.
cancelled the date with qiaoying tmr cos am feeling so lethargic and wanted to rest
saturday's the day and hope everything goes on smoothly (:

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

urgh. i SCREWEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD my malay oral
i dun wish to talk about it.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
that aside.

on sunday, went to orchard to purchase new school uniform.
after which, went to city hall area to do hayati's project.
after that, went to eat at long johns and took the loooooooong way home. hurhur. can slp noe.


on monday, i woke up rather early
to meet qiao ying at tampiness
we watched get smart first and ate at long johns. :)
GET SMART WAS SUPER HILLARIOUS :D
after that, made our way to MJC
but at the interchange, we didnt know what bus to take.
hahaha. in the end, we went outside and took bus 3.
reached the school and waited for the teacher.
talked to the teacher about the rock climbing wall and all.
glad that we managed to settled it :)
so now, we have a venue! hahaha.
so anyways, went back home after that. looooooooooong way again. hahaha


the wall. cool rite.

oh yeah. sis gave me a watch :D BABY G! haha. gold colour. hurhur.

the family celebrated my bday last sat
went to eat seafood and end with a DURIAN cake at home
hahahaha. the durian cake is super nice :D

urm. ok i shall study POA now. LALALA
i feel so damn angry.
isnt PW supposed to be a group effort.
isnt that why we were divided into groups in the first place?
but look at who is doing all the work now.
i thnk you find it oblivious to do anything.
i dun need to know the reason why.
and i only have to say is you'd better do something if not, then you're screwed.

hmmmm. my oral is in one hour plus time
and i had decided to just let go
and do the best i can.
but still, i hope they dont give questions that are hard. if not, i'll die of talking trash.

ok anyways, more on what happened on sunday and monday when i reach home afterwards
the pictures are in my computer and my stupid computer is giving me problems. sigh...
i wan a change in computer :(

on a brighter note, sis gave me a gold baby g watch! huahahaha.