Let me first say that this entry is not targeted at anyone. i am just saying my own views and i believe that no one should feel affected by this. anyways, what's a blog for if not for venting out feelings rite?

Yesterday was a successful event. i would like to thank all the participants for being there and being part of it! and i believe everyone had fun and enjoyed themselves! thank you once again :D

but behind it all, i was damn stressed.

we started off rough. we were rude to the participants and i guess that was why they didn't want to give us their attention when we were talking. i was giving out instructions and so was aishah and all we could here were noises and we couldnt really hear ourselves talking. and when some of us told them to keep quiet and listen, we were blamed for not being polite.

we were supposed to reach at 0930. and so were the belayers. so, qy, aishah, aqilah, hanis and i reached first. we were so stressed about the bandana thingy cos it was so last minute. in the end, we bought bandages. YES, it was really to a last resort. and so we waited for the rest to come, although we said that they shouldnt be late. in the end, we reached the place at 10 plus. and they only started climbing at 1030. and it was supposed to be me, qiao ying and shalani who were supposed to fetch the participants and in the end, shalani and i went. and we were late for fetching the participants and i know that it was my fault. and i apologise for that. PLUS, wani & her cousin couldnt go cos of a last minute thing and do anyone know how stressed i was because we had to reshuffle the groups yet again? i dont think so. and of cos, we couldnt blame the participants rite.

so we reached the rock climbing place and all. we put alot of buffer time and we had to push up the time and all cos the participants had too much of a leisure time. i mean. doesnt anyone know that we were stressed becos of this? we had to discuss about the reshuffling of time and all this. and when we do, we neglected the participants. and i do apologise for this.

so we left the rock climbing place earlier. and it was agreed that they were supposed to meet at 345 after having lunch. at that time, it was 3.00pm. i asked shalani to leave first because it was already agreed that they were to meet at 345. so qy reached the place late had to rush eating. and both of them called me to tell me abt the timing as they needed more time to eat. i i agreed to changing it to 4pm. little did i noe that because of this, a conflict sparked. and again, i apologise for this because i believe that it was my fault for not telling either of them that they needed more time to eat. reason being, we did not estimate that the bus journey would be half hour.

for the obstacle games, it was going on well. we finished earlier than expected. and i believed that we didnt need to keep to time. until a certain thing happened. there were only 3 of us left to take charge and i thank aishah for stepping up cos i was feeling stressed and i had to take over qy for the point system and all.

after the whole thing, we had a trash out session with mdm ong. and i believed my mistake was not delegating work equally. so as the leader, i take full responsibility for taking the blame of what happened yesterday and i believed that her sister should not have confronted hanis at that point of time as we were in the middle of game. because of this, it disrupts everything. and again, do not be affected by what i said as this is just what i think.

there were alot of changes for the obstacle games and doesnt anyone know how stressed it is not keeping to schedule? the water dog and bone had to be changed to 4 groups playing at one time. the charades in a line was changed to a different way of playing it. the trust your friend coulnt be played and we had to change the game to the standing up game and entangled. isnt all these enough to show our stress level? i mean aishah's and my stress level.

and i believe there was another conflict about me asking shalani to join grp 1 in the charades in a line. let me explain the rationale behind me asking her to go there. there were only 4 ppl in the group while the rest had 5 ppl in the group. so i had shalani to join in the grp so that there will be equal ppl in the grp. i didnt know that this would be taken seriously. even if there were leaders in the front of the grp, they didnt do anything as it was aishah and me who asked the front ppl to tell us the asnwers. i guess it didnt turn out the way it should be.

after the trashing out session, i believe our group has to work doubly hard based on delegation of work and communication. and let us hope that its from the beginning where we started off anew.

and i would like to apologise again because i didnt know that the food prepared by shalani's mother was for us. because from what i remembered, shalani told me that the food prepared was for her, her sisters and friends as they were lazy to go out and see. and as such, she said that if we wanted, we could take also as it is halal too. and even so, she could have announced that her mum had prepared some food for us and if anyone wanted, they could? maybe it was a misintepretation on my part. so i apologise again for that.

on a final note, i believe that qiaoying and shalani had undergo what someone would say, the worst day of their life. maybe not the worst. but one of the worst. and i just wanna say that i will be there for you and what's a grp for if not for understanding and helping one another rite?

and one more thing is that. i hate rumours. i mean. rumours is one such evil thing. if you heard a rumours, and you dont even noe that its true. shouldnt you NOT spread it? i mean by spreading it, you agrees with it. and as such, when the rumours concerns me, of course i will be angry. so all i have to say is, be careful of what you hear and say. it concerns everyone around you.

p/s: in the middle of our trashing out session, it began to rain. and damn heavily somemore! so we all rushed in the tent. and qy was like super scared of water sia. she kept shouting -.-. in the end, we all agreed that the tent could not hold the rain -.-" so we went out and started dismentling it. we asked mdm ong to go in the shelter but she wouldnt budge. damn funny lah she. so in the end, we closed the tent and rushed to the toilet's shelter. we were all damn wet lah. ahahahahha. in the end, changed and we took 176 home. hoho. super cold.